I have been thinking a LOT lately. Not so much about the course of our life or where we will be in the next few months or years....but more about life NOW. What we are doing NOW.
Because NOW is what matters doesn't it?
Now is when we need to spend time with our children, give them the attention that they need, the LOVE that they deserve....everything.
I am a procrastinator in every regard...so I really have taken this to heart. It seems like I am always telling A, "Oh, just a little longer and I'll play with you...just another 5 minutes"...but the time is NOW when we need to step up and be the kinds of parents that our children deserve...not in a month, or a year or more.
It has taken me a long time to realize this...and as I have been trying so much harder, my biggest fear is...is it too late? Have ANY of the choices that I have made up till now been SO big and SO hard of either of my boys, that they'll be long-lasting?
Is it already too LATE to become the mother I know that I need to be? I can only hope that the answer is NO....that I can do SO much more...BE so much more...and that it will have been enough. That anything I have or haven't done in the past WON'T be remembered by their little hearts and minds.
Boy do I ever LOVE them. I love them SO much that I want to absolutely everything I can NOW so that they will never DOUBT that I LOVE them, and care for them...and just want what's BEST for them.
The Lord has told us what we need to do...such simple things...patience, charity, love, serving others, keeping the commandment, READING the scriptures and PRAYING daily...we ALL know these things that we've been told...and I know our lives and, more importantly, the lives of our children will be SO blessed if we do them.
Off I go now to practice what I preach...little A is calling for me to spend time with him...I am so blessed to be able to raise these wonderful boys...and have ALL of this time with them...so blessed.
(for an amazing blog post a long these same lines....PLEASE READ THIS...it is SO wonderful!)